The Tower in My Mind

Lost in space, the space of my head…

In here there is no boundaries… maybe there should be…

Spinning around this spiral of thoughts, like a small child sliding down the spiraling banister from the loft…

What do the mean and where do they go… As if it were lightning to the brain… the roar of thunder drowns out the reality of my insanity…

I find it peaceful here, among the torment of time… like a raging sea, white foam and jagged rocks…

There is no place I’d rather be, and yet this is no place I should or can stay…

Calling me back like a lost child, “Don’t go… ”

The shelves of this manic library are ever so tall, so old and yet so colorful, as if decorated by an epileptic painter using the rainbow as a color chart.

Yet the sense of grey fills the air, the musky smell and taste of old paper… writing lines the wall, as far as seen.  My mistakes are so bright from here.  This is not a dream…

Reality escapes me, as it has times before…

Knocking so hard, on what I thought was the right door…

Ravage and bang, and it opens ever so slight…

And from here, I can see no light…  Faint figures with beaks and cloaks…

I’m safe here, for now… but soon… the ink will rise and I too will drown…

It has been told that the insane are the creative souls, trapped in a mind they can not control…

Grasp and wrangle, pull on the reins… wrestle these thoughts trapped in my brain…

Don’t let them out just yet… because thoughts become word, and words you can’t take back…

This head of mine, would give anyone else a fucking heart attack…

But I’ll relax here, in the easy chair of chaos… smoke a cigar, and expand the turmoil as I watch the blitzkrieg of thoughts tear me apart…

Just smile…

Wave good bye… reality… I hate you…

No more…. smile and sit here… sinking into my mind… the schism of thought and reality… Swells my brain…

A new day…

Here we go again….

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